Am I Finally Free?
My finals are over, and school is out. There’s an upside and a downside to this. Downside is, I’ve still got one class to take care of, so I have the looming threat of going back. But the upside is, I’m finally free to do my own thing for a while. It’s been too long, and I feel like somehow school has sapped away my creativity and ambition. Now don’t get me wrong~ I love learning. I spend countless hours just researching and learning things, whether I have a need for them or not. But I don’t do well with schedules, and I don’t do well with “other people’s interests”.
If I’m not excited about something RIGHT NOW, I’m not gonna learn it, and I’m not gonna care. Simple as that. But that’s why I’ve been looking forward to this time so much. I’m gonna do what I’m passionate about in the moment, instead of what I should do. Because there IS nothing I should do, even if only for a little while. Current plans~ Work on the Robosquid site, get back into making Trackmania maps (now that I’m a good enough player to make something worthwhile), and program. Program what? Who cares?! ^_^ Whatever I feel like in that very moment!
So am I finally free? Yes. I’m free to go in the direction I need to begin regrowing my thoughly school-downtrodden soul.
~Chloe <3
